The Joys of having CF

The Joys of having CF

Sunday, October 17, 2010

What if?

this post, is about a song I've been listening to lately. josh groban's song you raise me up. this song makes me tear up every time i hear it. i just absolutely love the meaning of it, and the words are so unbelievable. this song is also my grandpa's favorite song. he is 87 years old, and has some health challenges, but he's still cookin' :)
i believe that CF raise's me up. i always ask my self questions...what if?
what if i didn't have cf...would i be who i am today?
what if i didn't have cf...would i have written a book?
what if i didn't have cf...would i be homeschooled?
what if i didn't have cf...would i love the way i love?
what if i didn't have cf...would my love for the lord be the same?
what if i didn't have cf...would i know the wonderful people i do today?
what if i didn't have cf...would i have met the great people i have?
what if i didn't have cf...would i have not had the outlook on life i do today?
what if i didn't have cf...would i have the urge to make a difference in people's lives?
what if i didn't have cf...would i have the urge to make a difference in the world?
WHAT IF? WHAT IF? WHAT IF? WHAT IF? WHAT IF? WHAT IF?
i think about those 2 words over and over and over again.
day after day after day after day.
i try not to think of those questions often, because i believe having cf has made me a better person, and has risen me up to look on life in a different way. would i be the person i am today if it wasn't for CF?
Absolutely not.
Cf has formed me into the person i am today for a reason and i wouldnt have it any other way. i am so happy to have CF. I believe that by having CF, it has risen me up into the person I am.
I love the lyrics "You raise me up". My favorite lyrics are;
"you raise me up so i can stand on mountains;
you raise me up to walk on stormy seas;
i am strong when i am on your shoulders;
you raise me up to more than i can be"
I believe that CF has risen me up so I can stand on mountains. CF has risen me up so I can walk on stormy seas. CF has made me strong, and CF has risen me up to be more than I can be.
It has made me the person I am today. It has formed me into the person I am toay. I am so blessed and honored to have CF. I love CF, and I think of it as a Gift because i believe that God knows I am strong enough to handle it, and I am never ever going to stop fighting for a cure for CF. i am going to do everything and anything I can to find a cure for CF, and if what researchers say is true, in 5 years our prayers have been answered.
I am so thankful for CF, for raising me up into the person i am today.